Anti-Relationshipism March 2015

Been trying to write something, just anything, in these past few days but nothing is coming out. My thoughts are constipated. Been pouting thoughts on Fakebook sporadically but that’s about it. For some reason I keep feeling like I want to talk about relationships.

Someone mentioned the other day that it’s hard being single anymore. Everyone has that “all or nothing” mentally and rushing into things that require plenty of time and dedication to build. People are being too serious about things. With all the reflecting I’ve been doing lately, it really is hard being single. It’s gone past crazy out here these days.

The same person that mentioned it was hard being single also said that’s the reason she got in a relationship. I can’t knock her, the things she said made too much sense. On the other hand, she found someone to have something with that works for her. That’s important and also hard to find with someone.

Maybe it’s because I’ve been on the outside looking in for so long that I’ve over analyzed relationships. Thought about the chemistry of a relationship so much that I’ve talked myself out of them? Could just be the mentality of everyone else? I don’t know.

I knew of someone who would always say she wanted “companionship”. Just hearing that word over the years would turn me off. Had to google the definition of companionship to be sure I had an understanding what I had heard.

Not saying she didn’t want companionship but she wanted way more than that. What she wanted was a commitment, a boyfriend who was there with her all the time, she did not want to be alone. From my understanding, companionship doesn’t have to be under a “label” BKA “the committed relationship”. You can have companionship with any relationship (nonsexual also, for the tardy folk that only want to be one sided). If y’all click, it works, roll with it. It’s 2015, not 1950. Why water things down with “house rules” and “irrational emotions/reasoning”?  

I don’t really worry too much about being single or in a relationship these days. I mean, I think about them but I haven’t gotten anywhere worrying about them. The whole companionship thing would be cool. You know, like a loyal partner to do things with in general but you can’t be “single” and want those things. It’s an automatic, “head games”. That’s that watered down logic as I mentioned earlier.

Yes, finally had a BM (blog moment). I know I’m not done so there probably will be a part 2 before the end of the month.